Smelly smelly.

That's me. I'm making faces because daddy made me smell my smelly pee heavy diapers. I know that i expel lots of fluids, making countless diaper changes. But please daddy! Spare me from my own mess! *whimper whimper*

Suprise!

I am bald! Ha ha:) daddy mummy going to make a brush out of me hair! Brr.. It's cold!

Guess what?

Hi all! Wonder what's so different about my another lovely cute shots? Stay tuned!

No no! Not the T-shirt!

Hiya! Ain't i irresistable? Daddy don the T-shirt on me whenever he's bored. But it's ok.. Actually i like it! Ok ok, i may look silly tripping over myself but i know i am a bigger bundle of joy! Ke ke..

Mummy's advancements

After one month, Mummy finally mustered enough courage to shower Jemma yesterday, and cut her nails today!

As for breastfeeding issues - think supply is already running low cos haven't had gotten the energy to get up and express regularly at night, and in the day it's worse with Jemma's erratic feeding schedule and long awake hours. I've already tried my best Jemma, I hope that you'll still grow up a strong and healthy girl on formula...

Another hurdle to cross

Turned out that the body ache was because I was on the way to developing a high fever... Turned out that I got mastitis, a breast infection. Sigh. So timely. Tomorrow's Jemma's 1st month celebrations and I just hope that I'll be well enough to tahan through the 4-5 hrs. 

Maybe it's time?

It's been abt one month since Jemma has arrived and life has been topsy turvy since then. 24 hours is definitely not enough and i'm already feeling the toll that it's taking on my body. Got lotsa work and errands to do still. Just wanna take a few min to air my tots online.

Since Jemma's birth, I've been persisting on breastfeeding and boy it's an eventful journey.. She was on total breastfeeding and my milk came when I was discharged. I was lucky to have great friends who helped with my engorgement and offering their pumps when mine didn't seem to have worked as well. Anyway, so I was latching Jemma on directly.. and it seems that the hours that she feeds becomes longer and longer. From 40 min feeding session became 2 hours, and sometimes even 3 hours... and she still wants more. A visit to the PD during her 2nd week showed that her weight was normal so we find all sorts of ways to "hypnotise" her so that I can get some rest. But the long feeding hours was taking a toll on my Ns that became super sore and bled even. Mr fixed an appt with a lactation consultant to try to rectify the situation. The consultant massaged my breasts and boy it was painful! apparently I was having blocked milk ducts and that has caused my supple to decrease and causing poor Jemma to be forever hungry. So she prescribed the following plan for me - Latch Jemma on for 15 min on each side, followed by 5 of each side if she's not done, pump the balance out - cup feed her and if it's still not enough, I should use a supplementer - it's a device which has a container with formula milk and a tube that I should tape to my N so that she can get the formula milk. And the sucking should improve stimulation and supply ultimately. The whole process took 1 hour at the clinic. At home? 3 hours - with lots and lots of wailing. By the time I'm done with one cycle, it's time for the next feed.

And so, I made the painful decision to bottle feed her with expressed breast milk + formula as a supplement. It's still difficult to manage the time cos she doesn't have a fixed schedule yet but at least it's more manageable than before. So cos of the blocked milk ducts, I've gotta massage everytime I pump right.. The results - a mere 50-60ml per pump and the effects on my body - shoulder aches, arm aches... even finger aches. YES - even my fingers are aching while I type this entry. But I tell myself it's worth it.. Till this afternoon. I dunno if it's caused by improper force or what, my right breast is badly bruised and it's a searing pain when I apply the slightest bit of pressure.. So it takes damn long to express a little bit of milk and it gets engorged again very quickly. Mr and MIL is asking (for the upteenth time) for me to consider stopping breastfeeding... It's an internal struggle... Should I give it up or should I persist? I dunno how long more I can endure all the side effects but yet I want to provide the best for Jemma... Sigh... 

Gotta go get some work done... Deadline's tomorrow and the sleepiness is starting to kick in again... 

Rockaby baby?

Not sure if it's correctly spelt. But is this the solution to all our problems?!
¤keeping fingers crossed..

Yum Yum;)

Perfect! Double egg dinner. Daddy knows he needs to bribe me to take my monthly heartworm tablet:) hooray!
Attack!

Sleepy sleepy

The resident queen takes a backstage when the new little monster queen arrives. She now rests for nine months worth, helping ma ma recuperate.
Can't help but think that coco is somewhat jealous of jemma.

"i know, i know. Daddy has been trying his best every waking moment to assure me that i am still his number one precious girl.. But i can't help disliking that little squirming thing that robs daddy and mummy away from me each time she whimpers:(
:'(love me still ok mummy daddy?"